worn out....

i'm really worn out... physically and mentally... i've nv climbed or walked as much consecutively for so many days before... in fact, it's almost a month liao... hahahaha....

been thinking a lot these days.. other than watever i have on my hands... also abt almost every other thing dat's happened or might have happened or would be happening and wat i dun wish to see happening, etc etc etc... hahaha.... it's not a good thing... cos it drains my brain power from work... resulting in me feeling super tired whenever i get to sit down or get some rest... hahaha...

well.. it's a good time to be thrashing everything out with myself cos new year's coming... but it's also come at a bad timing lor.. cos now i'm most busy also... i shall not elaborate on that... all in my previous entries... hahaha...

now, i jus want to live my life simple and happy... cos dat's wat's most important.. with the rest, i'll give my best... and if it's still not enough to some, i can only apologise for dat... no more working myself off like mad after this new year... this can also be considered my resolution... and i'm glad i'm practicing it now with TMSACO... so i dun have to be everywhere... same thing for insinyur... but if that trust that i put in the person in charge is lost, i'll jus take the job back happily and get someone else to do it... this applies to everything we do... right?

hahaha... after july, it's really time to take myself off everything liao... as much as possible, nothing else to disturb me except to study... =)hhahaha...

jia you everyone!! happiness is all around u... jus look around if u dun believe... u'll find something that represents of reminds u of how lucky and happy we shd all be...

take care!!

long day....

it's been a long day at work today... cos today was the naming ceremony or wat they call there, christening la.... haha... either ways it was a super grand and big affair because this jack up is the first of 4 brand new and original designs... making it one of the biggest ceremony so far... i was surprised at how fast everything was put in place starting this week... hahaha.. tents were up by monday night and everybody was denied entry onto the rig this morning for the painters and cleaners to sort everything out before the big event...

well, the rain kinda drenched everything before the event started... but everyone looked great in their brand new white overalls... plus everybody also very happy that it's all over liao... (not really... still got touching up to do...) hahaha.... it's jus nice to see the project all done up liao lor... then had a guided tour of the cabins...something i've always wanted to see but couldn't go in before this... missed the helipad though... will make it a point to take photo up there after i complete a project of my own in future if i do go back to Keppel... hahaha.... will be tiring.. but it'll be worthwhile lor...

here are some pics i took... =)enjoy...

life....

well, i guess if everything goes smoothly in life it wouldn't be called life right? hahaha...

was talking about my mum's condition with a fren the other night and touched on the issue that she's been hurting more lately due to the tumour pressing on one of her nerves and also that there's some of the cancer cells on her bones near the tumour area as well... this is from wat i gathered from my sisters who've been gg to the doctors' with her...

tricky part comes when she's literally allergic to any kind of painkillers that the doctors can throw at her.. even the ones that actually work effectively... so she's been gg back to NCC quite often to see different doctors, for her allergy issue and also to get her radiotherapy...

yupz.. radiotherapy it is right now... 5 jabs, one each session, from tmr onwards till next tuesday...and another 5 after chinese new year i believe... altogether 10 jabs for one cycle.. we siblings are more or less mentally prepared for all these, but there's still a lot of arrangements to be made, coordinating who to accompany mum and to bring her back home and everything... all when i'm on attachment...

so well, it does pinch me a little i can't really be there as often as i wld hope to be... and it also taxes a lot more on my sisters who really have to ration their leave and off to be able to pull off all these appointments... so all i can do now is to handle watever i can at home and try to be with mum when home la... at the same time balancing the concert, Camp, frens and work...

well, the new nad improved positive me feels good abt it... hoping to pull it all off to the best of my abilities... at least until after mid year... where i'll set everything off to concentrate on home and studies...

well, as u can read, some might think i'm really a mama's boy... but in fact, i've nv been one until after the diagnosis.. realising my mistake over my 20 over years with her... there are things i've forsaken in the process, been misunderstood and also found along the way too... but i guess this is all jus part and parcel of it right? things go the way they do for a reason... and i wun question the reason... but jus carry on living my life, day by day, happy and to the fullest i can be...

hope everyone will do the same too!! cos holding on to unhappy things will only lead to more unhappiness... move on...

i need a break!!

seriously, i was jus smsing with a fren abt taking a break this weekend to do something dat i really like doing... then tonight i get thrown with a bomb!! BOOM!!

got woken up by a phonecall from my junior in TMSCO calling to ask if they can put my number on the poster as contact for ticket sales... then got ppl from insinyur calling to ask me to get names and details from all ppl joining Chingay by TOMORROW!! and on top of that i still havent wash my overall yet lor... which will set me back by another half hour again....

ok... i'm done making noise liao... time to go get my things done.... =)

bad old habits surface again....

perhaps my ang moh standard still very bad ba. but seems to me like i have this tendency to make ppl feel unhappy when i write some things on my blogs dat directly or indirectly involves them...

but i dun mean it dat way..... not how i typed it i mean... esp when i'm the type who types or writes and then forgets wat i wrote or typed.... believe it or not... that's how i forget things... as in things dat i dun wanna remember... which is why i keep a diary of my own at home dat i write on... anyone who wants to dig up anything abt me can find it in the book... from my worst fears to the worst things i've done to anything dat i've had in my mind dat i do not want to allow happen is all in there....

well, having very good frens who're willing to spend evenings out for dinner and other activities is really a good thing for me cos i dun usually have ppl to do that with on a regular basis... so i'm very grateful for the few of u who are doing jus dat with me right now... i can't be more luckier than i am ald...

i wld like to apologise here for the damage i've done... even though i know it's too late... but i still muz apologise no matter wat.... it was jus really very badly written... shall proof read my stuff next time before i post in future.... most of the time misunderstandings occur because i dun proof read and simply jus shoot my brain off when i'm typing on my blog...

this serves as a reminder to me to be more careful in future with my words... something i've always been very bad at... and blunt at for that matter... ( another big thank you to all those great frens out there who has to bear with who i am all the time...)

single but don't want to be available...

hahaha... good right? hehehe... yupz!! i'm single, but i'm not really in the right state of mind as yet to even consider anything other than being single and being around very good frens... hahaha... too many things to worry abt and consider liao..

so, ppl who are worried for me that i'll change my mind, pls don't worry... because like i've explained to a fren of mine... the me you know today is mentally much more different as compared to who i was in the past... in the good sense la.... hahahha...

but if something really happens to knock me over really good i'll still consider really hard... hahaha... BUT!!! wat are the chances of dat happening? hahahahaha... ZERO!!! hahahaha..... esp when i'm working Keppel now and maybe after i grad.. hahahhaha..

take care everyone!! tonight still got insinyur meeting in school... now gg for dinner liao...

work work work....

seriously, work is getting more and more each day, but it also gets more interesting so long i get to do something... hahaaha... otherwise will always wanna slp one... hahahaha....

to be able to get first hand views at the insides of the rigs and the setting up of machinery on deck is really and eye opener dat will nv cease to amaze u everytime something new is done up... Sat got christening of B283... so sad... seeing it leave us after that... =(

had a wonderful evening tonight outside at dinner... cos i end work earlier, so i went to JP to walk around first ma... played some arcade games and kept touring around the entire shopping centre...

then met for dinner and suddenly wanted to catch a movie... so caught The House... hahahha.... well, the show had good shock and scaring factors.. but the build up parts tend to be too draggy and makes the viewer lose their attention on the show...

all take care ya... =)me gg to slp liao... jia you!!