worn out....

i'm really worn out... physically and mentally... i've nv climbed or walked as much consecutively for so many days before... in fact, it's almost a month liao... hahahaha....

been thinking a lot these days.. other than watever i have on my hands... also abt almost every other thing dat's happened or might have happened or would be happening and wat i dun wish to see happening, etc etc etc... hahaha.... it's not a good thing... cos it drains my brain power from work... resulting in me feeling super tired whenever i get to sit down or get some rest... hahaha...

well.. it's a good time to be thrashing everything out with myself cos new year's coming... but it's also come at a bad timing lor.. cos now i'm most busy also... i shall not elaborate on that... all in my previous entries... hahaha...

now, i jus want to live my life simple and happy... cos dat's wat's most important.. with the rest, i'll give my best... and if it's still not enough to some, i can only apologise for dat... no more working myself off like mad after this new year... this can also be considered my resolution... and i'm glad i'm practicing it now with TMSACO... so i dun have to be everywhere... same thing for insinyur... but if that trust that i put in the person in charge is lost, i'll jus take the job back happily and get someone else to do it... this applies to everything we do... right?

hahaha... after july, it's really time to take myself off everything liao... as much as possible, nothing else to disturb me except to study... =)hhahaha...

jia you everyone!! happiness is all around u... jus look around if u dun believe... u'll find something that represents of reminds u of how lucky and happy we shd all be...

take care!!

long day....

it's been a long day at work today... cos today was the naming ceremony or wat they call there, christening la.... haha... either ways it was a super grand and big affair because this jack up is the first of 4 brand new and original designs... making it one of the biggest ceremony so far... i was surprised at how fast everything was put in place starting this week... hahaha.. tents were up by monday night and everybody was denied entry onto the rig this morning for the painters and cleaners to sort everything out before the big event...

well, the rain kinda drenched everything before the event started... but everyone looked great in their brand new white overalls... plus everybody also very happy that it's all over liao... (not really... still got touching up to do...) hahaha.... it's jus nice to see the project all done up liao lor... then had a guided tour of the cabins...something i've always wanted to see but couldn't go in before this... missed the helipad though... will make it a point to take photo up there after i complete a project of my own in future if i do go back to Keppel... hahaha.... will be tiring.. but it'll be worthwhile lor...

here are some pics i took... =)enjoy...

life....

well, i guess if everything goes smoothly in life it wouldn't be called life right? hahaha...

was talking about my mum's condition with a fren the other night and touched on the issue that she's been hurting more lately due to the tumour pressing on one of her nerves and also that there's some of the cancer cells on her bones near the tumour area as well... this is from wat i gathered from my sisters who've been gg to the doctors' with her...

tricky part comes when she's literally allergic to any kind of painkillers that the doctors can throw at her.. even the ones that actually work effectively... so she's been gg back to NCC quite often to see different doctors, for her allergy issue and also to get her radiotherapy...

yupz.. radiotherapy it is right now... 5 jabs, one each session, from tmr onwards till next tuesday...and another 5 after chinese new year i believe... altogether 10 jabs for one cycle.. we siblings are more or less mentally prepared for all these, but there's still a lot of arrangements to be made, coordinating who to accompany mum and to bring her back home and everything... all when i'm on attachment...

so well, it does pinch me a little i can't really be there as often as i wld hope to be... and it also taxes a lot more on my sisters who really have to ration their leave and off to be able to pull off all these appointments... so all i can do now is to handle watever i can at home and try to be with mum when home la... at the same time balancing the concert, Camp, frens and work...

well, the new nad improved positive me feels good abt it... hoping to pull it all off to the best of my abilities... at least until after mid year... where i'll set everything off to concentrate on home and studies...

well, as u can read, some might think i'm really a mama's boy... but in fact, i've nv been one until after the diagnosis.. realising my mistake over my 20 over years with her... there are things i've forsaken in the process, been misunderstood and also found along the way too... but i guess this is all jus part and parcel of it right? things go the way they do for a reason... and i wun question the reason... but jus carry on living my life, day by day, happy and to the fullest i can be...

hope everyone will do the same too!! cos holding on to unhappy things will only lead to more unhappiness... move on...

i need a break!!

seriously, i was jus smsing with a fren abt taking a break this weekend to do something dat i really like doing... then tonight i get thrown with a bomb!! BOOM!!

got woken up by a phonecall from my junior in TMSCO calling to ask if they can put my number on the poster as contact for ticket sales... then got ppl from insinyur calling to ask me to get names and details from all ppl joining Chingay by TOMORROW!! and on top of that i still havent wash my overall yet lor... which will set me back by another half hour again....

ok... i'm done making noise liao... time to go get my things done.... =)

bad old habits surface again....

perhaps my ang moh standard still very bad ba. but seems to me like i have this tendency to make ppl feel unhappy when i write some things on my blogs dat directly or indirectly involves them...

but i dun mean it dat way..... not how i typed it i mean... esp when i'm the type who types or writes and then forgets wat i wrote or typed.... believe it or not... that's how i forget things... as in things dat i dun wanna remember... which is why i keep a diary of my own at home dat i write on... anyone who wants to dig up anything abt me can find it in the book... from my worst fears to the worst things i've done to anything dat i've had in my mind dat i do not want to allow happen is all in there....

well, having very good frens who're willing to spend evenings out for dinner and other activities is really a good thing for me cos i dun usually have ppl to do that with on a regular basis... so i'm very grateful for the few of u who are doing jus dat with me right now... i can't be more luckier than i am ald...

i wld like to apologise here for the damage i've done... even though i know it's too late... but i still muz apologise no matter wat.... it was jus really very badly written... shall proof read my stuff next time before i post in future.... most of the time misunderstandings occur because i dun proof read and simply jus shoot my brain off when i'm typing on my blog...

this serves as a reminder to me to be more careful in future with my words... something i've always been very bad at... and blunt at for that matter... ( another big thank you to all those great frens out there who has to bear with who i am all the time...)

single but don't want to be available...

hahaha... good right? hehehe... yupz!! i'm single, but i'm not really in the right state of mind as yet to even consider anything other than being single and being around very good frens... hahaha... too many things to worry abt and consider liao..

so, ppl who are worried for me that i'll change my mind, pls don't worry... because like i've explained to a fren of mine... the me you know today is mentally much more different as compared to who i was in the past... in the good sense la.... hahahha...

but if something really happens to knock me over really good i'll still consider really hard... hahaha... BUT!!! wat are the chances of dat happening? hahahahaha... ZERO!!! hahahaha..... esp when i'm working Keppel now and maybe after i grad.. hahahhaha..

take care everyone!! tonight still got insinyur meeting in school... now gg for dinner liao...

work work work....

seriously, work is getting more and more each day, but it also gets more interesting so long i get to do something... hahaaha... otherwise will always wanna slp one... hahahaha....

to be able to get first hand views at the insides of the rigs and the setting up of machinery on deck is really and eye opener dat will nv cease to amaze u everytime something new is done up... Sat got christening of B283... so sad... seeing it leave us after that... =(

had a wonderful evening tonight outside at dinner... cos i end work earlier, so i went to JP to walk around first ma... played some arcade games and kept touring around the entire shopping centre...

then met for dinner and suddenly wanted to catch a movie... so caught The House... hahahha.... well, the show had good shock and scaring factors.. but the build up parts tend to be too draggy and makes the viewer lose their attention on the show...

all take care ya... =)me gg to slp liao... jia you!!

loving my work....

hahaa... i can't believe i'm saying this, but after working in Keppel FELS for a while, i find the job quite suitable for me... cos of both interest and also the kind of work that i get exposed to if i work there... though i'm not able to sign up for the scholarship that they're offering, i'll still go back in the end i guess..

now also working super hard with TMSACO which has jus been officially formed to get everything organised for the march concert.. looking forward to seeing that come to fruit and also to see all my kids from Keat Hwa again.. =)

lastly, there's also my one and only, insinyur!! hahaha... have to get things gg more quickly liao... cos apparently we're unable to get any jobs for the camp.. so will have to work harder to look for money for camp liao.. =)

hopefully everything will go smoothly la... tmr half day at work again!! hahahha... then got tuition start liao.. =) my only boy this year... no more kids liao... sunday's all mine!! =) hahahaha....

sooner or later....

sooner or later, i'm gonna overwork myself and die of fatigue i tell u...

hahahhaa.... this is seriously not doing me much good... not when i'm working super early and nursing and injured leg that doesn't seem to wanna heal that quickly... of course my work which requires me to walk around a lot is one of the causes of it too la... but dat's another issue... haiz....

jus finished dealing with loads and loads of emails which i had to clear by this weekend as promised... so i didn't get the chance to pack my room at all... aiyo....

muz find some time to do it asap liao... but next week seems equally packed sia... ahahahahaha.... dunnno wat to do with me man... =)

time to slp... gotta wake in a few hours time le... =)

leg healing....

well, i hope dat the leg will now be able to heal completely after this... went back for my second visit to the doctor and the two areas where he let the blood out are still a little sore.. but the area on the ankle is much better now so i'm wrapped up on the calf area now... at least this gives me a little more mobility to move around and go to work properly... hahaha... taking the sunday to rest and not go anywhere... at the same time make some effort to pack and clean my room up a little while settling some of the march concert issues dat have to be completed... next week got some more meetings in the evenings still... hahahaha... life jus nv seems to rest when u want it to right? hahahaha.... like i was telling an auntie downstairs yesterday, i can only get 6 hours every night now... so from whichever time i fall asleep, i'll wake up 6 hours later somehow... hahhaha... so now i have to plan wat time i go to slp every night... hahahaha.... so funny...

so now, ppl who wanna catch me online can find me from 10 to 12 every night.. if wanna meet up or something can always call me to arrange in the evenings lor... like dinner and coffee dat i had with sher the other night... =) i welcome those, cos i'm working in the west now, so i can always meet anywhere u like, even if it's in the east as well.. =) i'll still travel anyways... hahaha...

everyone take care and dun injure urselves oh!! heehhee... choy!!! ok... have a great week ahead!!

Trauma!!

went for the most traumatising doctor's visit ever today in the evening accompanied by my sister... cos my leg apparently didn't heal completely from the malaysia trip, so it kinda sparked off another bout of inflammation where my leg starts to swell and warm up again... so i decided it's time to get it ok once and for all liao... so went to the doctor recommended by my sister..

so i went in and like any other doctor, he pressed on the swelling part... it hurt, but it was still bearable... until he turned around and started to poke lots of holes in the swelling area without any warning at all i almost screamed... with the rest of my body twitching like i'm having cramps while lying on his table... then i realised he was gg to release the dirty blood that's been clotting up in the area... little did i expect him to pull out the sucking cup and placed it right over all the holes to draw out almost a small test tube full of blood from there... OUCH!!

after that the pain was ald beginning to become numbness cos my muscles were too traumatised to move at all... after he put on the medication and wrapped it up, i had to sit in the clinic for like 15 mins before i could start walking properly again...

drove back in my sister's van while she took my bike home for me... cos i simply couldn't use my left leg anymore... so automatic car still not too bad for me... drove home slowly and then had to give darren's surprise party a miss... paiseh bro!! happy birthday!! hope u enjoyed urself!!

now gotta go rest and hope dat i'll be able to walk better tmr while at work... firstly gotta fit into my safety boots then can talk abt anything else... dun wanna miss the rig jack up testing tmr for B283... it'll be a complete end to my first week of attachment...

gotta go... wish me luck tmr!! =)

IA....

judging by the looks of it dat i've not been blogging these few days u guys shd know dat either i'm too tired after work everyday to blog or i have too many things to see to dat i dun ffel like blogging anymore...

well, it's a little bit of both... hahaha...

work has been pretty boring even though the shipyard is very busy with so many projects gg on at the same time.. hahaha... dat's cos we still haven gotten our passes to board the rigs and semi submersibles yet... hence being confined to the mechanical workshop where we've been trying very hard to occupy ourselves with.. hhahaha...

being suited up in white boiler suits doesn't really make u very popular in the yard, cos ppl dun really like to see them around... it makes them skip a heartbeat... but when they realise it's jus us who're on attachment, then everything eases off to a good chit chat and a laugh... hahahaha.... we'll at least be stuck on land for this entire week up till saturday before we can get our passes to board the projects next week... hopefully dat'll help make time pass much much faster... hahahaha...

here is a look at me at my office table where i only spend 20 mins at everyday.. 10 when i arrive and 10 before i leave... hahahaha....

RC...

flew down to NTU this morning to get the IA booklet which was out of stock these past few days... had to get it for monday.... so bo bian....

rushed back to change and go downstairs to Bedok West Pri School for the edusave scholarship and bursary award ceremony... all because ur truly has decided to offer his services to his neighbourhood... working with the RC... hahahaha... it's a decision i took quite some time to settle on... yrs in fact... until end of last year when they got my contacts and started to call me up to join them in their activities...

of course i'll prioritise la... cannot help means cannot help ma... afterall, like they said, it's purely voluntary... if u cannot help then help another time la... scared no chance meh? hahahaha....

it'll definitely be a good experience for me, seeing how all these grassroot organisations operate and wat they really do all the time... =) today really had a feel of some kampong feeling... cos everyone jus had time to sit around and chit chat abt anything and everything happening in our lives... =)

i'm becoming an auntie liao!! hahahahaha... =)

fun--ny!!

hahaha... went back to TMS today to settle watever stuff i can before i start my IA and also have a good meet up with the teacher in charge to discuss abt some of the things... =)

then went down to the canteen to join the school with their last night of orientation... it's been a while since i've last seen a sec one orientation... things are so different now.. the music, the ppl, the kind of activities and the level of hyperness is totally different from all other orientations.. hahaha... Uni ppl definitely do not scream like them these days... hahaha... but of course there are other differences as well... hahaha... but on the whole, it's good to see the councillors well organised, went to congratulate Ms Lim on her handling of the children and also seeing the different student leader groups working hand in hand together to run the entire show smoothly.. =)

now jus gotta get my CO alumni up and running... =) wish me luck again!! =)

hectic days...

went to GLs chalet the night before and met up with a few of my 'grandchildren'.. hahaha... and had a pretty enjoyable time chatting and talking abt everything... i also passed on quite a lot of Insinyur history to them, hoping there would be ppl carrying on the flames after i leave.... afterall, this is my last insinyur dat i'll be playing any parts in ald... hahaha... thanks guys... for a wonderful night!!

then went home, sent my mum for her checkup and headed to school for the IA talk... i had a very big hunch that it was gonna be time wasting, and so i was right!! spent the one hour in school listening to some research and some letters of recommendations and terminations, so on and so forth... so totally wasted my time in this aspect... haiz... nothing fruitful in the end... i thought wat... chey!!

now got another handful of things to complete on my list and then prepare to start work lo!! haaha... i'm actually quite pepped for work... cos it'll really be very different from gg for lessons and everything lor.. hopefully i'll be able to keep this mindset up and happy all the way until the end of the entire IA la.. =)

wish me luck!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

spent my new year's eve at the doctors... hahaha... suddenly had a bout of gastric flu in the afternoon... hahaha... bad omen... ooorrhhhh.... hahaha... kidding la.. probably cos of the busy week i had last week settling back in after my trip to Alor Star... hahaha... well, i'm all ok again today.. bopping up and down (not exactly)... and enjoying my new year's day at home, taking the rest i shd have gotten after i injured my leg.. hahaha...

time to reorganise my time a little this coming year... because i forsee it to be a very very very packed year with lots of great activities happening that will all be super memorable to me and many others... =)

With canvassing on the way, the March TMSCO concert with Keat Hwa, my part timing with SCH, doing wat i love, TMS Class of 2000 Homecoming and also most importantly, Camp Insinyur 08!! =) all these shd be more than enough to keep me super busy on top of my 5.5 day attachment stint with Keppel Offshore and Marine.. a chance of a lifetime for me.. =)

i can only hope for everything to go as smoothly as possible and for everyone involved in everything to be as happy as they possibly can be.. =)