life....

well, i guess if everything goes smoothly in life it wouldn't be called life right? hahaha...

was talking about my mum's condition with a fren the other night and touched on the issue that she's been hurting more lately due to the tumour pressing on one of her nerves and also that there's some of the cancer cells on her bones near the tumour area as well... this is from wat i gathered from my sisters who've been gg to the doctors' with her...

tricky part comes when she's literally allergic to any kind of painkillers that the doctors can throw at her.. even the ones that actually work effectively... so she's been gg back to NCC quite often to see different doctors, for her allergy issue and also to get her radiotherapy...

yupz.. radiotherapy it is right now... 5 jabs, one each session, from tmr onwards till next tuesday...and another 5 after chinese new year i believe... altogether 10 jabs for one cycle.. we siblings are more or less mentally prepared for all these, but there's still a lot of arrangements to be made, coordinating who to accompany mum and to bring her back home and everything... all when i'm on attachment...

so well, it does pinch me a little i can't really be there as often as i wld hope to be... and it also taxes a lot more on my sisters who really have to ration their leave and off to be able to pull off all these appointments... so all i can do now is to handle watever i can at home and try to be with mum when home la... at the same time balancing the concert, Camp, frens and work...

well, the new nad improved positive me feels good abt it... hoping to pull it all off to the best of my abilities... at least until after mid year... where i'll set everything off to concentrate on home and studies...

well, as u can read, some might think i'm really a mama's boy... but in fact, i've nv been one until after the diagnosis.. realising my mistake over my 20 over years with her... there are things i've forsaken in the process, been misunderstood and also found along the way too... but i guess this is all jus part and parcel of it right? things go the way they do for a reason... and i wun question the reason... but jus carry on living my life, day by day, happy and to the fullest i can be...

hope everyone will do the same too!! cos holding on to unhappy things will only lead to more unhappiness... move on...