snapped....

i snapped this morning... apparently the late nights and rushing deadlines with the back to back reports defeated me and pulled my last straw away liao.. haha.... but it was relatively small scale liao.. so wasn't too bad... and it died down in a few minutes... so ok la...

tired liao sia... and i haven even started studying yet lor... probably dat's why... hahaha...

well, thanks to the rest of the guys for completing the tough parts of the paper today with me after lessons... if not i sure sink ship and die one lor... hahaha... now gotta go run thru the stuff one more time and print it out so that tmr can submit can liao... =)

final lap liao....

final lap for projects ald... hopefully i wun have to touch anymore of such things after wednesday... cos i'm really damn sick and tired of it ald.. time to study le...

now jus gotta finish crapping out the 8082 stuff and print out all 3011 stuff i can finally possibly call it a night liao....

i think these few days really overstressed liao sia... now like putting everything on to myself to finish up... luckily today the guys volunteered to clear some parts for me... otherwise i'm sure to die one... thanks guys!!! =)

okies... gotta go start on my stuff le... wish me luck!! =)

buddha leg? me?

do i in any way resemble a buddha's leg? cos apparently my tuitees think so cos they're all like arranging tuition together jus the night before the exam lor... hahaha....

went to the doctors' this morning and was told dat the eye thingy is an infection... but wat it is actually he's not too sure also.. well, i'm jus given a super huge dose of antibiotics, hoping to be able to get it down soon... hahaha.... have yet another presentation on thursday...

now gotta figure out how to get the funny 8082 project is supposed to be done... cos until now i'm still not sure how to go about doing the entire thing sia....

hopefully i'll have some inspiration hit me the next moment i log out of here... hahaha... =)

goldfish eye....

heard of goldeneye from James Bond movie? i'm now goldfish eye... hahaha.. apparently the swelling didn't go down and i'm now swelling from top to bottom of my right eye... feeling puffy all day and very lethargic.. haiz....

it's so damn irritating.. cos i cannot do my stuff properly and it jus gets on my nerves... esp for this weekend... when so many things awaits my attention... managed to get 3011 done up to the extent where we're about to conclude and close the whole thing liao... as for 8082, i really have no idea wat to do sia....

damn tired right now... feeling damn lonely too.... but i have to deal with it... cos dat's jus the way things are...

having a swell of a time...

haha... my swell is literal... the eye is back again... for i dunno wat reasons lor... haiz... but i'm hoping it'll go away soon enough la... Worst part is tmr i still gotta go school for a repeat presentation with my groupmates for the entire lecture group for my elective... it's an honour, but not on a saturday lor... plus we're lacking our charismatic danish groupmate for the day... haha...

well, i guess it's nice to have a change after sending off a teacher that i heard news of a fren married over the weekend.. i'm happy for them, though i would nv be able to conceive myself doing wat they did because of my own stand on such things... hahaha... so well, like i told him, as long as both of u are happy, and u guys are very certain, i'm happy for them and will definitely support their decision... cos afterall, it's their lives they have together... =) congrats!!

today gg SAO walk around, with the guidance from Albert, an old fren of insinyur and previous CEE club chairman, hope to be able to make some connections in SAO so that things for insinyur will go a little more smoothly in the months to come... =) cannot be late.. hahaha... will go prepare my stuff and head on down liao...

take care everyone, drink more water and rest enough... =) this is now my policy... haha... of course not forgetting to keep smiling too!! =)

a great loss....

Mr Chang Chin Ho as we all knew him as back in primary school... was the one man whom some feared to approach because of his fierce look and wat we all know or heard abt him in school... hahaha....

the Mr Chang we saw tonight lying there was a totally different man... all thin and frail due to his 4 yr struggle with prostate cancer, he had changed quite a lot... but he was a strong man... having been through so much in the later years...

he only has a son, but in fact as i told my mum, he has many children... every last student of his will always be his child... as he really set the example when he first took in his primary 4 student who had no money to study n nowhere to live to pay for his education and give him a roof to stay under...

we agreed... the education field has lost a wonderful teacher... one who truly showed the world wat it meant to be a teacher...

Dear Mr Chang, thank you for all the teachings from way back... Ur life, ur stories will carry on in ur children... all students u've taught in ur 30 plus years in education... we will all miss you dearly... Rest in peace...

sad news....

it was to be a little more enjoyable today after school cos project's coming to an end..

but everything shattered when my pri school classmate called...

Mr Teo passed away... The man whom we all remembered as the disciplinarian who had a cane everywhere in the school and was a very strict chinese teacher passed on after years of recovery from a bicycle accident in the late 1990s.. then he fought senile dementia up till the very end...

it hit me hard when the news came... cos he was the man who inspired me and started the interest in chinese language in me, resulting in my passion for the language.. he was a very strong man... fighting the loss of memories by writing everything down, sending letters to other ex colleagues of his... had the chance to read one of his letters during new years this year.. really missed him...

will pray for u... take care.... rest in peace...

everyone, cherish ur loved ones k? dun leave anything to regrets... nv....

crowds.....

crowds are not usually my cup of tea... unless i know i have no choice to... but if i can avoid i will definitely avoid them for sure... i'm sure everyone does dat right?

but sadly today i was dumb enough to jump right into the crowded library in bedok... kind of a last resort ald.. because the Mac at Changi cinema there close liao... *sad* so my only quiet place of lone time and study time is gone le... now have to source for new one... today no time cos gotta finish rushing out my lab report for tmr.. so jus popped into the library to try my luck...sadly i shd say my luck wasn't dat good ba... settled down on the floor and eventually found a socket to plug my charger into my laptop... sat there for 3 whole hours and more.... in the end stand up also cannot stand up properly... hahahahaha......

well, no more la... too much for my back and legs to take liao... next time ti'll make the extra effort to ride over to another place that's more quiet to sit down at a table to study... home has too much distractions in store for me ald... slp is something i'm consistently tempted to do.....

how???? how??? so tired... now still gotta think of 8082 before i go slp slp....

very not good....

not good is my sense of urgency now... i can't seem to get myself worked up for this coming exams... consistently sitting in front of the tv when i'm at home and when i get the chance to do so... and not being able to complete watever i set out to which could have been easily done if i hadn't sat in front of the tv... hmmm....

could be overstressed liao... too many things, too little time given to myself... plus loads of pressure.... phew... how do ppl survive such things anyways? hahaha...

well, gotta find a way out of this somehow... tmr will be a good day to stay away from home and try to get some things done la... home is jus too comfortable for me liao... hahaha... gotta try somehow... and the stuff still needs to be done at the end of the day... jus dat my power supply for my laptop will die very fast if i dun have a power supply to hook up to...

well... see how tmr la....

done!!

presentation is finally over...

shiok...

it was nice... having to be able to interact with students from different disciplines and different countries too!! hahaha.. was an enjoyable experience though it was a little tough from time to time.. but at least it's over liao...

now left with two more to go!!! yeah!!

and then it's the dreaded exams... but lookign more forward to the holidays after that... hahaha.. =)

good luck everybody!!

impeccable timing...

haha... wat timing? my swollen right eye actually.. got too heaty this week and there the little thing started to grow under my eyelid again... haiz... hurts when i blink... damn... hahaha...

but watever la.. best part is tmr morning got presentation for my public admin lor.. hahaha... hopefully will be able to pull it off ba... somehow i realised i'm not exactly the typical engineer you would expect ba... at least not to the HSS ppl whom i know.. hahaha... cos i'm like the only one who attempted to use pictures instead of words to convey my points across.. hahaha.. but it's been a personal practice for some time ald... esp more so after i've started teaching the kids.. hahaha... it really makes a difference to be able to discern if ppl are more able to absorb wat u're teaching lor... the saying says it well, a picture says a thousand words... how true...

so tired... now wanna go slp liao.. tmr morning still gotta wake up super early... but will most prob give my 3001 lecture a miss la... dun wanna rush over north to south and get all messed up before my presentation...

good nitez everybody... =)

seeing an end to neverending work...

haha... sounds good right? not really.. because right after all these are cleared, i have to prepare for exams liao... hahaha...

now jus finished my parts for my elective presentation on friday.. probably gonna wear my nice shirt again.. or shd i wear my shirt with thin pink stripes? hahaha... *wonders*

and i'm left with design project to finish compiling, systems project to compile as well and lab report to finish up too!! it feels so much better but my shoulders and back are not good....

they've been aching like nobody's business sia.... sians.. jus read a report the other day abt having too much stress also leads to a release of something more in the muscles that lead to a lot more aches and pains... so is dat the case for me? i dunno... we'll know after the november ba.. hehehe....

reason...

there's a reason as to why i loved teaching so much that i dreamt of being a teacher when i was older.. hahaha... dat was in primary and secondary school...

but now, i firmly know why... hahaha.. it's seeing how the children under ur care learn and grow up to become sensible and wonderful grown ups.. this is how wonderful it is when u teach... of course there are times when such things dun go as u'd have wanted it to... i'm gg thru dat with one of my students as well... so i shd say that this teaching years as a tuition teacher has given so much more insight to the real world of teaching and made me understand how teachers continue to teach year in year out for so many years without haveing lost any passion dat they first started off with... hahaha....

but, no matter wat, i've promised myself dat since now i'm and engineering student, i'll definitely not put my studies to waste and will definitely land myself in an engineering job for a few years first before any other decisions are made... with maritime slowly becoming a hot favourite of mine, i shd believe dat it will take quite a bit of effort to be able to change my perceptions to go back into teaching... hahaha....

but of course dat comes with a price as my frens put it... hahaha... i'll definitely have to find a gf before i start work... otherwise i'll definitely be unable to find any in the shipyards.. hahahaha.... =)

hahaha... this kind of things, not up to me to decide one la... if nv meet means nv meet... u'll nv be able to search for one... hahaha... now, i'm jus happy being me!! =)

seriously need to reorg sia....

hahaha... i was amazingly forgetful enough that i totally missed a 2 hour lecture today as i sat in the CAD/CAM lab trying to figure out how to use solidworks to draw out the steamer for my design project.... intuitively i kinda knew the lecturer was gonna mark attendance, the second of two which he takes as class participation... well, jus my luck for missing wat's most probably the most important if not crucial lecture for this module.. hahaha....

well, it's over... and at least i managed to get something done in that period of time... too bad it was the wrong time to do the right thing... hahaha...

yet another sign showing how i'm beginning to crack under the growing stress... CANNOT LET IT WIN!!! i'll find my way out of this somehow!! =)hahaha... time to go do something productive again liao... tmr is another day stuck in CAD/CAM lab with more solidworks.... terrible, but something dat we shd all know... something dat will definitely be needed in future if we do go into engineering field... it's abt time i did something abt dat repulsion to computer softwares.. hahaha... =)

terrible....

the stress levels are building up very high again... why and how do i know? basically, when i drop all my work and jus hit the sacks no matter how much i've not done, it means something is very wrong... haiz... gotta clear things up slowly ald... having too many projects and assignments at one time can be such a bother sia... esp when all if not most of them are group work and exhaust tons and tons of time....

well, one more down, 3 or possibly 4 more to go!! =S hahaha... watever la... seriously need some workout man... will probably help me destress and stop me from growing anymore laterally... hahaha... okies... time to go wash up, pack up and head for school in a while lo!! looooooong loooooooong day today..... plus tonight still gotta go meet teacher... haiz.... wil be super washed up sia... =)

have a nice day everyone!!

WOW!!

hahhaa.. went to east coast today with my 3rd sis and immanuel so dat he can learn how to cycle... but upon reaching there it started to rain cats and dogs... hahaha... then jus as we went out to the beach to take a look at the rain we saw the water sprout!! so coincidental... saw it whirl up from the level sea and then it took a turn for the shore!! took a lot of sand up and hit a group of trees before dying off... took down one small tree in its path... wow... was only jus talking abt seeing it and there it was right in front of my eyes!! hahaha...

after waiting the rain out went to rent a bike for the boy and we embarked on the tough task of learning to cycle.. hahaha.... perhaps i was a litle more inclined to riding since young ba, so i actually took minimal time to be riding around and happily zipping around on my bike jus minutes after sitting on it.. hahaha...

well, immanuel too an hour, much much faster than wat his mum and i were expecting... hahaha.. but he enjoyed it... and i hope he learnt something from this experience also abt not giving up so easily... hahaha... well done!!

dinner tonight was full again, not only with the food, but also the ppl eating together... the entire family of 19 were all present for my mum's birthday dinner tonight... we celebrated earlier this week cos today was a day everybody could make it somehow... hahaha... really not easy to coordinate lor...

saw my youngest nephew, wei cheng... cute boy, big eyes like mine!! hehe... even got my nickname too!! Ah Seng!! cos he's full name is Low Wee Seng... hahaha... adorable boy... turning one year old soon lo... so fast... time really flies man... hahaha.... stay strong and healthy oh!!

was curious and went to studentlink to check on my IA interview and found out dat the company accepted me that very day after the interview.. hahaha... was quite happy, though many frens think i'm crazy for wanting to go to such a company where working hours are long, conditions are terrible and jus tough... hahaha.. but my concept in this is very simple, jus like my army experience, i'm here for the experience, plus i'm the more hands on type, so i'd rather go for such jobs than be stuck in the office everyday... hahaha... =)will be looking forward to getting the rest of the details la.. now gotta go get work done liao... tata everyone!! =)

tiring day, but well relaxed...

woke up super early this morning to head down for the IA interview.. i can't say how well it went, but it was a very comfortable small chat between my interviewers and myself... but i'm not realy pinning too high hopes cos there were a lot of ppl who went for interview today...

wore my nice shirt dat i bought with sisters at Marks and Spencers.. was very comfy and looked pretty nice...

then finished up on matlab and 3011 before flying back east to meet qun for dinner... was late by quite a long while, but made up for it by gg for genki sushi... woohoo... the salmon was wonderful... thick juicy pieces... shiok!!! took a ride down to mustafa's after dat to go get some stuff... hahaha... was interestin cos i dun usually shop there... mainly cos of the crowds... but there are other reasons as well la.. hahaha....

was really a nice meet up with her.. we both missed each other a lot.. hahaha... always the case cos we're both busy with our own stuff.. so unless i go visit her mum or her sometimes, we dun usually get to meet up also...

crapped the usual crappy stuff and basically jus let myself off tonight as i had hoped to.... so looking forward to our next meet up.... =)

gotta rest liao...

at least for tonight gotta hit the sacks to make sure i have enough slp for tmr's interview.. hahaha... not my first but the usual me will nv let such things go by without at least 100% from me... hahaha... watever i can do properly and well i'll do it to my best abilities... =)

ooh.. insinyur blog is up liao!! the link is jus on the left hand side.. =)nothing up there now.. but can go there and chat nonsense together la.. =)

niteyz... wish me luck!! =)

early early morning...

last night was supposed to get some things done, but by the time dinner and everything was settled, i was kinda ready to knock out ald... hahaha....

these next two days are gonna be busy busy busy sia... 2 projects, 1 assignment to discuss and complete, settling of the yr end trip stuff, and also dinner with fren on friday evening....

sat and sun even better.. hahaha... dunno how i'm gonna split myself on those days ald...

gonna take one day at a time ald... will work hard to finish watever needs to be done on the day itself in school la... cannot then bo bian liao... hopefully can la.. =)

jia you everybody!! Me Off to School lo!!

sians....

dunno why, but suddenly today i went from ok to super sian mood....

hmmm.... puzzling....

even i got a shock myself... to feel how i was feeling inside and seeing how i reacted to quite a bit of things today...

well, i guess we all have our down days ba... tonight gg to search for some things and then gg to call it a night liao... tmr morning still sending mum for CT scan at SGH before heading down to school for lessons..

long day... many lessons.... many projects waiting for me to attend to them... need a break this weekend sia... luckily my friday is ald planned... at least for the evening la.. dinner and chilling out with my bestest best fren... hahaha...

super tired man.. hopefully can get myself back in order before i go cuckoo again....

new!!

haha... actually.. nothing new la... still the same old me, same old naggy blogger... hahaha... only a change in moods and change in mindset.. but it really does feel different doesn't it?

having a totally different background template does make a difference even though everything seems to remain the same... why is dat so? hahaha... i also dunno.. hahaha...

but now, i'm not gonna dwell too much into things i cannot understand also.. cos i believe there are some things dat are not meant for us to accept and to simply jus enjoy it or experience it as it is bestowed upon us in this life..

in simple words... as we've heard it so so many times throughout our lives.. jus accept it... and live it the best way u know how... because there isn't a guidebook telling everyone how we should live our lives in the 'perfect way' right? so why worry so much abt wat others think abt how u're living ur life? u shd be more concerned with how u feel abt the way u're living ur life now instead... and then reflect on whether u feel good abt it or not, then take the actions u deem necessary ba...

good luck!!

a new beginning?

we sometimes do get a little tough on ourselves dun we? for not being able to accomplish certain things in the time we set for it to be done, even though it may sometimes seem impossible to accomplish at all...

i guess we could all use a different perspective sometimes and realise dat eventually we're still human... how much we can do is determined by how much we wanna do and how much we really can do.. accept dat fact, something which i'm trying to do right now, and sometimes things really do straighten out somehow...

life has been pretty kind to me, giving me a good home, a life without any major obstacles and full of lessons for me to learn and be careful of... this is something i've always been very grateful for... now dat i'm much older and more financially independent, i can begin to think abt wat i've been wanting to do since young... and feeling strongly abt it has really helped make me more determined to put the action where it shd be... and not only with words... slowly la... things will unfold by itself one by one...

at least for now, i hope i can help my four kids get past their O's and get the results they want... =)jia you guys!!

as for myself, i'm not pinning a lot of hope on this sem right now... at least i hope i can get past the interview for my IA, so dat i can get a feel of the job dat i've always dreamt and heard abt... wish me luck!! good luck to everyone having interviews soon too!! =)

wish everyone good health and think happy thoughts oh!! =)